Have you ever gone through image problems?I don't know whether i am using the right word or not,maybe impression is the right word maybe portrayal of your image is the right thing to say .We always have a image of ours elf in our mind,i mean how we are looking at any instant of time.we know that we are not bad,we are humans,we just get driven by different forces in life.These forces in life often reflect on our image.

You are a genuine person,you are good at heart yet you have a "not so good image".You say something and the second moment you regret it.Every time you have a feel that you should have controlled yourself or this was not the right thing to do.

I have always experience this thing that the way you think of yourself,people think the same of you but at the same time everything you think about yourself is not right.
we all know that actions speak louder than words,what if our action was not intentional?wait but your action has already spoke about our intention..oh no wait we can apologise.Does apology covers it all up?maybe yes maybe no but one thing is sure your act never goes missing.
we should always be satisfied in our mind because your brain find reasons behind things.
You want to achieve something from a decade and everything you try goes waste.Sometimes things don't work and most of the time you mess up.You can't tell everything that is wrong with you,even if you do they wont understand and even if they understand it would be for a second.However What you can do is try to be consistent in whatever you do, even if that is fooling around or working like a slave.

With one eye you can see the good in you and with the other you see the bad,our heart makes us sad with our condition and our mind makes us stable with the same condition.Its a state of mind where u cannot smile neither you can be sad.You can laugh,you can cry but can't smile neither you can be sad.You are not satisfied with what you have and you don't have the urge to make yourself satisfied.Your dead in your own way,your pathetic in your own eyes but in others view you are not that bad.You get tensioned by the small things in life and the big things are at your toe.Confusion,sickness,laziness,Schizophrenia or at the end of the day its normal....its human.

random thoughts are coming into my mind.maybe i can asemble them to actualy read it.

what do u want to do next ??? perhaps it is the most usual and the most general question asked by parents to there kids.whether its about your career or day to day life and yes i m one of the thousand students which leave this question unanswered (because that's the better way).while deciding what to do or not do most people go with there gut feeling,which is by default good and a better way.what if u don't have a gut feeling ??,we go by the choice of our loved one's.Is that the best way of doing things, we say yes because we don't have any other option.
what do u want from your life? same question with a different text.most people know what they want but they don't know how to get it because there sole aim is destination not the path.somewhere the destination gives u a momentary satisfaction but the path satisfies you at every point.we want to do every thing in life but still sitting at home and thinking about it gives more satisfaction than actually doing it .
every person thinks they are different in some way or the other and that is true for them but believe me you can find your identical twins next door.Regretting is a part of life and everyone regrets at one points or the other,ask some smart people and they will say"i don"t do things which i regret", like they are some jackasses who know when the world is going to end.
there is something about that word "meant".things don't turn out the way you want them to be but the way they you implement it .After all it was meant to be this way.....

finding existence

why are you doing this ?? whats the need?
nelson-i don't know,maybe doing it just for the sake of it ..
what do u mean by that ????
nelson- maybe this is what i am suppose to do.
Is that so ?
nelson-yeah i think ...
you know its your life your talking about ????
nelson-who cares my life is going to find its own way.

if you were given an option would you be like nelson?i would say yes ,at least he is not a troubled man.he is in no hurry to know why he is on this planet and not on the mars or maybe Venus.

have you ever tried looking yourself in some other persons eye?you can see a very microscopic image of yours,this Small is your existence in this world and that very small amount of time you have to live.sometimes it looks like a million years and at others,it passes away with your breath.

finding a place for yourself is not easy sometimes you feel the need to change yourself and sometimes you want to change people for their own good.you know what you should do but you don't do that.you take back your steps and pretend you were never there.somethings get on your mind so hard u feel like rubbing it and then scratching of its left over.

a day of hard work and at bed you think .....,,,tomorrow everything is going to be right, when things look pretty good when they are wrong.

loner

walking on a lonely road where the wind is flowing in your hair ,there is no one to look forward to nor to to look back to.unlike the road your mind is saturated with thoughts.memories of past mingling with the present creating a slur image of the future.your not a loner because of some mental illness but because you want your thoughts to be more round eyed.you hate being coiled but somehow you enter in knotty
situations.tired of trying ,weak in your knees but you cant fall.you want these things in your life but your not getting them.irritated,annoyed,rile you sit back and think where is it that i m going wrong or is there anything left to go wrong for.mind makes up images that have happened or should have happened.god you want those things so desperately in your life but your shackled in your own thoughts.many friends are walking with you and you are walking alone...............

dreamer

dreaming ...one of the most subtle things which everyone does .people dream about success,money ...every thing .
you ask me about it and ill say its the best job i have.its a way of making yourself happy fantasizing about ..
anything u want to.
its like loosing yourself to your imagination .i often dream about things that can never happen but who cares it makes me happy
and i love it .reality bites ...but dreams make u happy .sometimes u just feel to lie down on the road and look at the stars
above and think
of things that make u happy ,that bring a radiant smile on your face .everyone wants to be a hero..guess what they can be they
dream about and who
knows one day your dream will come true,by the hero thing i don't mean the usual hero type man.a common man who fights the odds
in his life ..and
deserves a standing ovation ..but he doesn't get it .there were days when i could dream ..for hours.thinking about everything
from being the best to achieving
the things i want .Albert Einstein quotes"if you can dream it you can do it " its quit inspirational but nah its not me .
in my view dreaming is good but u should know when
to check into reality......