With one eye you can see the good in you and with the other you see the bad,our heart makes us sad with our condition and our mind makes us stable with the same condition.Its a state of mind where u cannot smile neither you can be sad.You can laugh,you can cry but can't smile neither you can be sad.You are not satisfied with what you have and you don't have the urge to make yourself satisfied.Your dead in your own way,your pathetic in your own eyes but in others view you are not that bad.You get tensioned by the small things in life and the big things are at your toe.Confusion,sickness,laziness,Schizophrenia or at the end of the day its normal....its human.